The Mind is Eager But The Senses Are Engaged

Should we detest life?

No, Of course not! But when the mind embraces life with all its imperfections then life is possible. Every mind is in search of that infinite bliss even when the senses are fully absorbed in mundane affairs. The Mind is willing but the sense faculties are engaged elsewhere.

And, the search will continue until it understands that the source of any happiness, however, transient in nature is emanating from its own being.

Our outward search for happiness is as absurd as a firefly searching its own light outside.

Our older generations understood this truth very well. I would like to share a traditional Malayalam prayer song that we were taught and asked to recite with BHAAVAM(remembering the meaning) every day. If you are interested, I have also included the meaning line-by-line.

Note: Shiva mentioned in the above prayer is to be understood as the ‘Perfect Being’.
Shiva, the One who has attained Perfection, always blissful in his own Self eternally, Flawless, Formless, One without a Second, Complete.

As a human being, I took birth in this world,
But I am now in the middle of the ocean of Samsara which is like hell,
Please help me swim to the banks, away from the hell,
Oh Shiva Oh Shambhu, the Perfect Being.

Whenever I think about dealing with the fear at the time of death,
My mind forgets all that I know,
And So please come and play in my mind( remind me my True state, Sat-Chit-Ananadam),
Oh Shiva Oh Shambhu, the Perfect Being.

Shiva Shiva, I am ignorant and know nothing,
About the nature of Maha Maya(illusion, Holy Mother, Prakruti),
And so please help me overcome Maha Maya,
Oh Shiva Oh Shambhu, the Perfect Being.

I am entrapped in a very big forest(Samsara)
And I am wandering without knowing the way and when I cry for help,
Oh Lord please show me the right path then
Oh Shiva Oh Shambhu, the Perfect Being.

Lord, with your grace, I found an easy path out of the dense forest,
But on that way, in between, at several places, I see Six stairs( 5 Jnana-Indriya(sense of perception)+ Antarendriya(Mind))
And when I climb all the six stairs then,
I see you, the Perfect Being.

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And The Nominees Goes to

It is very kind of Varun over at My Art & Me to nominate the blog for this award. Thank you, Varun. About his blog, he writes beautiful poems. He has a fresh take on poetry. I love his work, especially the ones on philosophy. So please do visit his blog, link below.

http://myartandme.com/

Before I start, let me apologise to some wonderful bloggers who had earlier nominated this blog. I never got to writing one and it was not intentional. I am still unsure of what to write… Nevertheless, here I go.

How I started my blog?

I started blogging to journal, to discover myself more. There is an old adage that says you become whatever you think and I strongly believe in it. So, the best way I found to continue my quest is to keep thinking, practising and writing what I observed. Thanks to WordPress platforms, it not only helps me document the progress but also serves me to connect with like-minded bloggers.

My two cents to new bloggers:

  1. Basically, blogging takes a lot of your time and it is simpler to speak your mind. So write what you believe in and also what direction you want to grow into.
  2. It is your home so don’t shy way from experimenting. This is one platform where you should be ‘YOU’. Blog only those which you put into practice and that way it is easier for your readers to connect.

Every blogger is special in his/her own way. Yet, have to nominate 15 of them.

So Nominations are (in no particular order):

http://theutopiauniverse.com/

https://indroyc.com/

https://mindwithoutwalls.org/

https://beautyishisfootprint.wordpress.com/

https://graleview.wordpress.com/

https://poemhobby.wordpress.com/

http://www.pragalbhadoshi.com/

https://boundlessblessingsblog.wordpress.com/

https://anonymoussadhaka.wordpress.com/

https://aurawithwriting.wordpress.com/

https://intheautumnofmylife.wordpress.com/

https://vivektoshniwal.wordpress.com/

https://beautybeyondbones.com/

https://amitavchowdhury.wordpress.com

https://keerthanagaganna.com/

The rules for accepting this award:

  1. Give thanks to the person who had nominated you and a link to their blog.
  2. Write a post to show your award.
  3. Briefly tell how you started blogging.
  4. Give two pieces of advice to new bloggers.
  5. Nominate 15 other bloggers for this award.
  6. Comment on the nominated blogs and let them know you have nominated them and give a link to the post you have created.

Discovering Through Reflection

During our conversation last night, my husband said “what if we could remember all our previous births? How would our lives be then?”

Ahh, that thought was interesting. Yeah, so what if everyone could decode those vasanas/impressions stored in their subconscious part of the mind? And as an ordinary being, what if we couldn’t peruse it the right way? Can you anticipate the horror and emotional distress that invariably accompanies those memories?  If we are unable to deal with our past in this life. Imagine having to live with numerous such memories.

Sri-Bhagavan uvaca
Bahuni me vyatitani, janmani tava carjuna
Tany aham veda sarvani, na tvam vettha parantapa
                                                                                Bhagavad Gita:4,5

In the Gita,  Krishna says to Arjuna ‘Many a birth have I passed through, O Arjuna, and so have you. I know them all, but you know them not, O scorcher of foes.’

But what if we could remember, would we let go of things?
Maybe not. Upon coming back, we would try hard to regain our worldly possessions gained in our previous births. But, how many would we run after?
or
The guilt-ridden mind would obsess over the past and the higher spiritual planes or growth for that matter would then just remain a dream.

Well, then, we are blessed that we are unable to access those deep-seated memories and are given another chance to start afresh.

Now that I don’t remember and cognize well that if born again, this very life would be nothing more than a dream. So I ask myself:

Is it still important to make myself heard?

Do I still work under pressure when I know even here stress can’t deliver my best?

Can I simply enjoy the efforts?

Who am I trying to perfect(my Self or Sumi)?

Do I keep trading peace for ignorance?

Questions such as these always help me to keep coming back to my practice. The ultimate purpose of reflections is to keep reminding that we are a part of a whole and to bring us close to our being.

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A Lovely Paradox

It was a wonderful sight last two days to watch Kites in different design and shapes soaring high in the sky. Missed the colourful beauties fluttering in the sky during the last few years. Finally, it was so nice to see kids having a good time, away from their smart phones, we have come a full circle.

Talking about the idea of having made a full circle, I began to think more of this idiom ‘coming full circle’. We use this expression a lot with people. Basically, it means ending in the same place where we started.

But do we really come a full circle?

I knew I had come full circle whenever I stopped to look at my life and realised what I had was better than what I have and went back to what I started out with. When we are busy running the race of life, we seldom stop to ask ourselves, “Is this really what I want?” until life forces us to think.

And, thanks to technology, the more choices we have, the less happy we are today. Why are we unhappy having more choices? Because the “grass is greener” syndrome keeps us in a never-ending loop of unhappiness. Nothing in this universe can keep us happy for a long period of time, however brilliant, we would eventually get bored- that’s how we are wired. The notion that something will help us come a full circle is an illusion. Instead, believing firmly that we are already complete can eliminate unwanted stress from every aspect of our lives.

Imagine a person who has embraced the idea(instead of just knowing) that he/she is complete and lacks nothing.

When the life drama unfolds before him, he will play his part with such confidence rather than be crying or begging or insisting the drama follows his script. Though he will be in it, he will yet be out of it, a lovely paradox 🙂

This one idea can do wonders for you and to your relationships with expectation off the table. When we feel complete within ourselves, the partnership with life will invariably function smoothly.

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On and Off Relationship(Cont’d…)

This post is a continuation of the previous one.

Often when the mind blabbers, it is lost in thoughts about the past or the future. Whereas when the mind is calm, we would be more “aware” of the current experience, isn’t it? The awareness I am referring to- is not the awareness of the physical body or the train of thoughts but the inner being.

In meditation, we try to investigate and be intently aware of that silent and formless inner being. If you meditate, you might have come to experience a thoughtless state. Even for a second, when the mind empties, you witness the space/gap, pure awareness. You cannot explain that state in words but you were very much witnessing that thoughtless state. That awareness is the real you.

Even when the Mind thought it was distanced from the Self, the substratum supporting these thoughts were none other than the Self. Though the conditioned mind loves to believe that it is a different entity in itself, it is part of a unified whole. Whatever we see, feel, hear, smell or think are nothing but the interactions of the elements of the whole. Just as the words and the blank background simultaneously and interdependently make this blog post. Likewise, the tragic story is nothing but the thoughts transpiring in the self and hence it was never detached.

Then, why do we miss it? When we look at a thing, our attention goes to its name and the form, then although the substratum is supporting, it goes unnoticed. For example, while you are reading this post, you read the content but do not pay attention to the blank background which made this post a reality. These words are intertwined in this space so intimately and inseparably that it gets difficult to discern with our senses. It is everywhere, we are practically living in it.

“Why do I need to be aware of this awareness?” You may ask.
Well, as the saying goes, ‘you can exist here just as a piece of creation or you can exist here as the very Creator himself’- you make the choice. But again, this is just self-knowledge, knowledge in itself cannot guarantee a life free of dualism. However, it will motivate you to stay present in the moment and investigate more in knowing and experiencing that Immutable ‘I’.

Avyaktādīni bhūtāni vyakta-madhyāni bhārata
Avyakta-nidhanānyeva tatra kā paridevanā//
Bhagavad Gita:2,28

O scion of Bharat, all created beings are unmanifest before birth, manifest in life, and again unmanifest on death.

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On and Off Relationship

We met, we fell in love but our relationship suffered a setback due to my association with the senses. Then I broke up and then we made up and I broke up with the Self again.   That’s all I do, and I feel guilty but it continues even today.

We are falling in and out of love as I am unable to renounce the joy that the senses provide. Though I do not want to commit adultery and quite blissful in the relationship I share with Self yet the sense longings follows me like my shadow.

These longings failed me every time besides catching up with it tired the body and drove me to the point of exhaustion. However, I restrain and practice self-control, the turbulent senses carry me forcibly into the world of desires. Here I am, struggling to find my way out and longing to be back in the safe arms of the Self and promising never to commit infelicity again.

Then I asked myself: why do I put up with this pain and strain when I have attained peace within? What, exactly, am I lacking that stops me from ending this toxic relationship with the five senses?

I told myself that I have to choose between pain and joy and that’s when I realised what I lacked. I lacked faith and loyalty as I let myself brood over the worldly imperfections. Also, I never restrain myself enough as I took advantage of the temporary fallout and played victim each time. But, alas, after aeons of infidelity, neither the senses experienced fulfilment nor I could establish an honest relationship with my Self. So I am back to square one again..

Guess this would be the confession of the Mind which failed to permanently establish in the Self.

Yatato hyapi kaunteya puruṣhasya vipaśhchitaḥ
Indriyāṇi pramāthīni haranti prasabhaṁ manaḥ//
Bhagavad Gita:2,60

The senses are so strong and turbulent, O son of Kunti, that they can forcibly carry away the mind even of a person endowed with discrimination and practising self-control.

Yadā sanharate chāyaṁ kūrmo ’ṅgānīva sarvaśhaḥ
Indriyāṇīndriyārthebhyas tasya prajñā pratiṣhṭhitā//
Bhagavad Gita:2,58

One who is able to withdraw the senses from their objects, just as a tortoise withdraws its limbs into its shell, is established in divine wisdom.

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