Wavering Mind & It’s Play

If only I had a good partner or different career or disciplined children or better upbringing, I’d be an extremely happy person!

Have you heard anyone say this?

I have. Myself, many times in the past before the realization that nothing here could keep me happy. That is when I realized that the problem doesn’t lie with others. Then who is to blame?

No prizes for guessing 😉 Take it in writing. However powerful you may be, you cannot always keep your surroundings to your liking.

Yes, there are times when others feel pleasant and you feel the vibe. But the truth is that we have become so dependent on somebody’s emotion that we forget that we are capable of feeling pleasant within & without any help from the outside.

Let me just give you an example here; the other day my husband and I went to meet someone. We were in good spirits and even before we had said our hellos, the person, out of the blue said something very nasty and direct. The person is someone elderly and we not only have to endure the taunt but also to respond with a smiling face. My husband and I wondered what went wrong, but thankfully we took a minute to respond.

We could have done one of the many things-

  • Respond and not react but with an excruciating pain inside and not forgetting it for life
  • React and vent that emotion and spoil the whole scene
  • Keep wondering what might have made that person say that.
  • Be conscious of the emotion arising at the moment and it’s worth compared to the pleasantness we were in.

I agree this is a dramatic example, but you know what I mean. There is no switch that we could press to call for pleasantness when we encounter such situations. We should have consciously endured that pleasant emotion to know its worth over the other things or people.

See, ultimately we have to live within these complex emotions. It is not just about choosing the ones which make us and the environment around us more pleasant. But also our understanding of our self and the kind of importance that we attach towards the pseudo self will determine our journey forward.

Bhagavad Gita shares its opinion on what keeps people in ‘Yogah'(inner journey). According to Gita, the prerequisite to be in Yogah is a controlled mind.

Asaṅyatātmanā yogo duṣhprāpa iti me matiḥ

Vaśhyātmanā tu yatatā śhakyo ’vāptum upāyataḥ// 6, 36

Yoga is inaccessible for the one with an uncontrolled mind. But, for one with a controlled mind who strives by the proper means, can attain perfection in Yoga. This is my opinion.

On and Off Relationship(Cont’d…)

This post is a continuation of the previous one.

Often when the mind blabbers, it is lost in thoughts about the past or the future. Whereas when the mind is calm, we would be more “aware” of the current experience, isn’t it? The awareness I am referring to- is not the awareness of the physical body or the train of thoughts but the inner being.

In meditation, we try to investigate and be intently aware of that silent and formless inner being. If you meditate, you might have come to experience a thoughtless state. Even for a second, when the mind empties, you witness the space/gap, pure awareness. You cannot explain that state in words but you were very much witnessing that thoughtless state. That awareness is the real you.

Even when the Mind thought it was distanced from the Self, the substratum supporting these thoughts were none other than the Self. Though the conditioned mind loves to believe that it is a different entity in itself, it is part of a unified whole. Whatever we see, feel, hear, smell or think are nothing but the interactions of the elements of the whole. Just as the words and the blank background simultaneously and interdependently make this blog post. Likewise, the tragic story is nothing but the thoughts transpiring in the self and hence it was never detached.

Then, why do we miss it? When we look at a thing, our attention goes to its name and the form, then although the substratum is supporting, it goes unnoticed. For example, while you are reading this post, you read the content but do not pay attention to the blank background which made this post a reality. These words are intertwined in this space so intimately and inseparably that it gets difficult to discern with our senses. It is everywhere, we are practically living in it.

“Why do I need to be aware of this awareness?” You may ask.
Well, as the saying goes, ‘you can exist here just as a piece of creation or you can exist here as the very Creator himself’- you make the choice. But again, this is just self-knowledge, knowledge in itself cannot guarantee a life free of dualism. However, it will motivate you to stay present in the moment and investigate more in knowing and experiencing that Immutable ‘I’.

Avyaktādīni bhūtāni vyakta-madhyāni bhārata
Avyakta-nidhanānyeva tatra kā paridevanā//
Bhagavad Gita:2,28

O scion of Bharat, all created beings are unmanifest before birth, manifest in life, and again unmanifest on death.

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