On and Off Relationship(Cont’d…)

This post is a continuation of the previous one.

Often when the mind blabbers, it is lost in thoughts about the past or the future. Whereas when the mind is calm, we would be more “aware” of the current experience, isn’t it? The awareness I am referring to- is not the awareness of the physical body or the train of thoughts but the inner being.

In meditation, we try to investigate and be intently aware of that silent and formless inner being. If you meditate, you might have come to experience a thoughtless state. Even for a second, when the mind empties, you witness the space/gap, pure awareness. You cannot explain that state in words but you were very much witnessing that thoughtless state. That awareness is the real you.

Even when the Mind thought it was distanced from the Self, the substratum supporting these thoughts were none other than the Self. Though the conditioned mind loves to believe that it is a different entity in itself, it is part of a unified whole. Whatever we see, feel, hear, smell or think are nothing but the interactions of the elements of the whole. Just as the words and the blank background simultaneously and interdependently make this blog post. Likewise, the tragic story is nothing but the thoughts transpiring in the self and hence it was never detached.

Then, why do we miss it? When we look at a thing, our attention goes to its name and the form, then although the substratum is supporting, it goes unnoticed. For example, while you are reading this post, you read the content but do not pay attention to the blank background which made this post a reality. These words are intertwined in this space so intimately and inseparably that it gets difficult to discern with our senses. It is everywhere, we are practically living in it.

“Why do I need to be aware of this awareness?” You may ask.
Well, as the saying goes, ‘you can exist here just as a piece of creation or you can exist here as the very Creator himself’- you make the choice. But again, this is just self-knowledge, knowledge in itself cannot guarantee a life free of dualism. However, it will motivate you to stay present in the moment and investigate more in knowing and experiencing that Immutable ‘I’.

Avyaktādīni bhūtāni vyakta-madhyāni bhārata
Avyakta-nidhanānyeva tatra kā paridevanā//
Bhagavad Gita:2,28

O scion of Bharat, all created beings are unmanifest before birth, manifest in life, and again unmanifest on death.

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On and Off Relationship

We met, we fell in love but our relationship suffered a setback due to my association with the senses. Then I broke up and then we made up and I broke up with the Self again.   That’s all I do, and I feel guilty but it continues even today.

We are falling in and out of love as I am unable to renounce the joy that the senses provide. Though I do not want to commit adultery and quite blissful in the relationship I share with Self yet the sense longings follows me like my shadow.

These longings failed me every time besides catching up with it tired the body and drove me to the point of exhaustion. However, I restrain and practice self-control, the turbulent senses carry me forcibly into the world of desires. Here I am, struggling to find my way out and longing to be back in the safe arms of the Self and promising never to commit infelicity again.

Then I asked myself: why do I put up with this pain and strain when I have attained peace within? What, exactly, am I lacking that stops me from ending this toxic relationship with the five senses?

I told myself that I have to choose between pain and joy and that’s when I realised what I lacked. I lacked faith and loyalty as I let myself brood over the worldly imperfections. Also, I never restrain myself enough as I took advantage of the temporary fallout and played victim each time. But, alas, after aeons of infidelity, neither the senses experienced fulfilment nor I could establish an honest relationship with my Self. So I am back to square one again..

Guess this would be the confession of the Mind which failed to permanently establish in the Self.

Yatato hyapi kaunteya puruṣhasya vipaśhchitaḥ
Indriyāṇi pramāthīni haranti prasabhaṁ manaḥ//
Bhagavad Gita:2,60

The senses are so strong and turbulent, O son of Kunti, that they can forcibly carry away the mind even of a person endowed with discrimination and practising self-control.

Yadā sanharate chāyaṁ kūrmo ’ṅgānīva sarvaśhaḥ
Indriyāṇīndriyārthebhyas tasya prajñā pratiṣhṭhitā//
Bhagavad Gita:2,58

One who is able to withdraw the senses from their objects, just as a tortoise withdraws its limbs into its shell, is established in divine wisdom.

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Faith Fear Guru and God

Why is there a fear to unbound ourselves and break away from things that conduce to ruin and sorrow? Even when it hurts and are condemned by the wise yet we force ourselves to live bounded. It is not that we are devoid of choices but we are afraid to challenge the blind faith.

Some religious institutions and Gurus demand blind faith from their adherents. A faith which is devoid of knowledge and which defies all logic. A faith which is not a choice and that which does not agree with common sense. Should our beliefs be built on those which cannot be reasoned? That brings us to the question why we don’t reason them? Is it the fear or greed that stops us from the reasoning process?

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Object of Faith is important

In the name of faith, we kill people, abuse animals and nature alike. We are the same set of people who spend lakhs of rupees to adorn the God we believe in but are not ready to give a penny more to the needy. Despite proclaiming that service to Humanity is Service to God yet we never get to demonstrate this belief.

Perhaps we strongly believe that Gods respond to the barter system. That we can offer something to God, and he would respond in helping us to make our lives better here. God isn’t really waiting for us to finance his work 😛. He doesn’t lack anything! Instead of building a relationship with him, we think we can entice him with our offers. Really, which God has asked us to do so? Yeah, you are right, it is not God but the wrong mediators who connect us to God are responsible for growing this blind faith.

The questions now facing us: Should we seek out a Guru? If YES, then who should choose our Spiritual Guru?

We have a right to seek guidance. But honestly, do we even get to choose a teacher before surrendering our mind? If we see the multitude, we clearly understand someone chooses them for us. That can be our friends, relatives, neighbours or our family. Despite the fact that we all are different, we still do the same mistake of letting others choose the Guru for us. When the experience does not turn right, it can lead to spiritual struggle and even loss of faith😐.

Then, what are the qualities of a spiritual master?

Guru Gita describes real Guru to be a true saint whose only intention is the spiritual welfare of his disciple. The guru is someone who brings his disciples from darkness to light. He never proclaims himself to be God but teaches his disciples to be humble and to pray for the welfare of all. A Sadhguru never gives his opinion to understand the divine but he takes a bona fide spiritual text and transmits them exactly as they were spoken.

“What is the role of a Sadhguru in One’s spiritual search?” you may ask.

Sadhguru and a True-Disciple always work together. There is no denying the fact that a right Teacher can guide us, but we ourselves are responsible for our purification. The teacher cannot wash away the impurities of others. As the saying goes, you can lead the horse to the water, but you cannot make it drink.  A Guru can try to explain how contented he felt when he quenched his thirst and how the water alone has helped him achieve it. However much he describes the experience through words it will always fall short of the reality. But he can instruct us in making us understand the importance of water and drinking water will only suffice the thirst. Similarly, a Sadhguru can impart us with the knowledge of the Brahman but we ourselves have to experience that oneness with the Brahman.

We can take refuge in the teacher but we need not sacrifice our freedom of thought. We can with the help of a Sadhguru make a journey towards the unconditioned mind. That alone will allow us to experience the uninterrupted flow of bliss and would conduce to the well-being and happiness.