Your Cheating Mind Will Tell On You

“And try to sleep
But sleep won’t come
The whole night through
Your cheatin’ heart
Will tell on you”

Remember this song by Hank Williams?

That was my case last night. But before you think that was because of someone or me cheating- that wasn’t the case but yeah, my mind cheated on me. So much for my mindfulness(pun intended).

It all started when my husband surprised me with a tunic he shopped from Shoppers Stop. When he gave it to me, my mind was all over my face.

I couldn’t understand how this caught his attention and that will remain a mystery I’ll never figure out. The cloth is beautiful but the cut isn’t for me. To make it easier for you to understand let me post a picture of the tunic from the web. And if you are wondering how I looked, pretty much the same with the curls. Only that the model is more beautiful than I.

rhesonSo when I asked why this out of all the other interesting pieces from Rheson brand, he responded with, ‘I thought this would be a nice change to your collection.’ And that settled it.

I did not say a word after that but poor guy, he didn’t understand what ticked me off. He was more than happy to have it exchanged.

But with that, I know, it would put a stop to all the future surprises. Why would I want that? So I decided to keep it and unconsciously my mind should have battered around ways of pairings it with jackets or belts to add some definition.

I didn’t even notice it thinking as I went by completing the work that I had on hand. And then I remember retiring to bed and sleeping. And suddenly I wake up feeling thirsty and with that, the thoughts over that dress come back. I noticed my mind thinking of the many ways of wearing it. Can you imagine me watching this whole chatter in the head and the mind unwilling to sleep? I tossed around and tried to reason it out, nothing worked for a while.

That’s why I said, “so much for my mindfulness!” My cheating mind clearly bypassed my notice and thought so much around the tunic that the minute it was awakened it went back to that very thing.

This is what it does best, when we aren’t noticing- taking us on a ride 😉 Last night through the chatter I remembered a verse from Gita- Dhyayato Vishayan Pumsaha Sangasteshoopajayate(Chapter 2, 62).

Truly, those early seekers who became our teachers were so right about the mind. And today being Guru poornima, we could take a minute to remember all the teachers who selflessly shared their wisdom. Can we?