Moved Into New Rented Home

Moved into new rented home just like the same way I moved into this body with absolutely nothing.

As soon as our parents got to know about our movement, they shared many things to help us make a smooth transition into this new chapter of ours. Just the same way, I got a name and other things along with a family as soon as I moved into this body that I call mine.

I try not to entertain any thoughts about adding anything more to the rented apartment than what is required. Because I know although I live here, it is not mine then I wonder why does it not come easily to me when I look at my body. That I had also signed a rental agreement before moving into this body and one day I have to vacate even this that I call mine.

Something to remember…or the only thing worth remembering…

Srimad Bhagavad Gita

Adhyatmajnana nityatvam tattva jnanartha darsanam
etaj jnanam iti proktam ajnanam yad ato ‘nyatha

Settled conviction in the nature of the SELF and understanding that the knowledge of the Self as the ultimate in Knowledge – this is declared to be wisdom; whatever is
other than this is ignorance.

Act To Express, Not To Impress

We have an inexhaustible appetite for acceptance and approval and therefore every action of ours is directed towards that goal. We try so hard and yet the goal never seems to arrive.

Anytime I do that, I pity myself. We suffocate ourselves in the process thinking once accepted people will stop judging us. Unfortunately, people will remember what they like to remember, we can influence it but cannot control it. There is no end, we have to keep acting to impress people all the time. Is it even worth it?

Let’s introspect.

  • Why do we expend so much of our energy seeking recognition?
  • What happens when we are recognised?
  • Who is seeking recognition?
  • In the end, who feels better?

Now, in reality, are we trying to impress others or in the process trying to impress our Self? You feel happier when you make an impression. So, ultimately, every action that YOU make is to make YOU happy.

So, stop acting and start expressing. And, let that be a kind expression because what goes around does come around 🙂

Image: Internet

 

 

Spiritual Stagnation & An Award

First, let me thank the beautiful Shivangi from Multitude Of My Thoughts for the Versatile Blogger award. Her posts depict her beautiful mind.

I am always excited and happy to meet people who have the guts to fight their own demons. It is not easy when you get down to understanding and channelling your mind because it will only serve the One who is worthy to be its master. I have great respect for those who dare to tread this path and blogging has allowed me to meet such fantastic people.

She is one among them. Trying to get a hold and looking inward for answers. You should visit her blog to see how a 20-year-old is striving to achieve a balance in life. Link below

https://multitudeofmythoughts.wordpress.com

While my posts always reflect what I am working on however that doesn’t mean that I always get the things right. I commit blunders on the way. Although, my mind is happily married to me but like any good marriage it took time and work. So, I thought sharing good times alone may not be right 😉

When we experience a ‘state’ that we are unable to maintain after a while, it gets frustrating. There would be an invisible battle between faith and patience and while that happens that state reappears yet wouldn’t stay. It keeps enticing us until we unbecome and attain spiritual maturity.

I am sharing what I learnt during those times and how to avoid it…

  • When the disagreements are strong, it is better to listen. Do not suppress it or start meditating. OBSERVE and LISTEN to the blabber and you will see it coming back.
  • Don’t try to talk somebody’s faith into IT if you haven’t personalised for IT during good times.
  • If you want IT to follow a scripture, make IT fall in love with it. Only then, Shastras will work like conscious suggestion bringing it back on the path.
  • Identify unhealthy patterns and work to overcome. Depending on the severity, I recommend not trying to overcome them overnight. Slowly but consciously build the desired behaviour and IT will be motivated when it sees small success.
  • Teach IT to be flexible. It is absurd if we make IT rigid and narrow. IT should change to evolve. Whenever IT says, my beliefs, my opinions, I am always right etc.Understand who is saying it, and while IT is saying it, observe ..
  • Lastly, if you feel stagnated then stop postponing and start rebuilding. Remember YOU are THAT and nothing can take that away. You are just learning to be YOU.

If we stop observing others and start observing our Mind then ultimately IT would take us to its source.

We are visiting Gangtok, Sikkim. The image is the breathtaking view on the way to the mystique Tsomgo Lake.

The Beauty Of Contradiction

Sarvendriyagunabhasam sarvendriyavivarjitam
Asaktam sarvebhrccaiva nirgunam gunabhoktr ca//
                                                                           Bhagavad Gita 13,15

The Ultimate Truth shining by the functions of all the senses, yet without the senses; unattached, yet supporting all; devoid of all qualities, yet their maintainer.

Look at the beauty of this Shloka. Guru Veda Vyasa defines the Indefinable in a language of contradiction.

We could use an analogy to illustrate this striking contradiction.

The power of the electricity is recognised when the plugged-in devices perform its task though it needs no devices to be known- it itself is so pronounced. The nature of electricity doesn’t change depending upon the devices plugged in. It doesn’t acquire the qualities of the appliances, does it? For example, the electricity is not the cold in the fridge nor the heat in the geyser. Electricity when functioning through the appliances conditioned by them gives an impression of being something else other than itself

The appliances can run faulty and can break down yet when replaced the electricity powers them the same way as it did it with the previous one. So it stays detached yet supports any appliances that come in contact with.

It is just not electricity, everything in nature seems to stand as an example of detached support. Sun and Moon, Ocean and Waves, Mud and Pot, Gold and Jewellery, Waker and Dreamer, Body and Shadow, SELF and Mind etcetera.

Similarly, the SELF functioning through the mind, sense organs and the Intellect might look as though conditioned by them but in reality, it remains unchanged yet supporting all.

The mind with the prevalent Guna(subtle nature/mood at that time) when in contact with the pure Consciousness becomes the ‘Ego’ and is the doer and experiencer. And we say-I did it.

Also, we somehow keep promoting and developing that false Ego. Will we promote the mirage in a desert to a vacation spot? Or worse still waste our whole life in keeping the mirage intact?

The above Shloka clearly states that the Self, however seeming to possess, sustain and maintain the faculties yet it is beyond them and is as detached as the Waker is to the dreamer.

Image: A mirage by Angela A Stanton

On and Off Relationship

We met, we fell in love but our relationship suffered a setback due to my association with the senses. Then I broke up and then we made up and I broke up with the Self again.   That’s all I do, and I feel guilty but it continues even today.

We are falling in and out of love as I am unable to renounce the joy that the senses provide. Though I do not want to commit adultery and quite blissful in the relationship I share with Self yet the sense longings follows me like my shadow.

These longings failed me every time besides catching up with it tired the body and drove me to the point of exhaustion. However, I restrain and practice self-control, the turbulent senses carry me forcibly into the world of desires. Here I am, struggling to find my way out and longing to be back in the safe arms of the Self and promising never to commit infelicity again.

Then I asked myself: why do I put up with this pain and strain when I have attained peace within? What, exactly, am I lacking that stops me from ending this toxic relationship with the five senses?

I told myself that I have to choose between pain and joy and that’s when I realised what I lacked. I lacked faith and loyalty as I let myself brood over the worldly imperfections. Also, I never restrain myself enough as I took advantage of the temporary fallout and played victim each time. But, alas, after aeons of infidelity, neither the senses experienced fulfilment nor I could establish an honest relationship with my Self. So I am back to square one again..

Guess this would be the confession of the Mind which failed to permanently establish in the Self.

Yatato hyapi kaunteya puruṣhasya vipaśhchitaḥ
Indriyāṇi pramāthīni haranti prasabhaṁ manaḥ//
Bhagavad Gita:2,60

The senses are so strong and turbulent, O son of Kunti, that they can forcibly carry away the mind even of a person endowed with discrimination and practising self-control.

Yadā sanharate chāyaṁ kūrmo ’ṅgānīva sarvaśhaḥ
Indriyāṇīndriyārthebhyas tasya prajñā pratiṣhṭhitā//
Bhagavad Gita:2,58

One who is able to withdraw the senses from their objects, just as a tortoise withdraws its limbs into its shell, is established in divine wisdom.

Image: the web

Our Own Nature-The Hindu Trinity

It is true that we just cannot stay inactive, can we? We want to create something, not necessarily unique but a strong compulsion within to play the role of a creator. From creating jobs as an entrepreneur to the scientists creating motherless-babies, we humans are indeed a creative breed. There is no boundary of human endeavor and there is no one who doesn’t have an urge to create or let me put it this way, nature ensures we create. We are creators, period.

Isn’t this blog itself a product of my desire to create. But we do not just stop at creating, we indeed play the role of the Hindu trinity, Brahma, Vishnu, and Shiva. While Brahma in us keeps himself busy, the Vishnu and Shiva aren’t left out. They work parallel with him and in congruence. For instance, whatever we create we want to sustain it, be that be our jobs,relationships,status,blog, money,negativity,jealousy,ignorance..;)

As Brahma and Vishnu are engaged in their activity, our own nature decides when it had to terminate what it has created. That phenomenon is what we call by the name ‘Shiva’. It is our own nature that expresses itself threefold, plays the part of these Trimurtis. Everything that has a start has an end and every end has a new beginning. Now this holy trinity is a symbolic representation of the life we lead here. Like I said before, we are so occupied and weary playing all the three roles that we never get to live our lives.

So, break the wheel of monotony and start enjoying what you already have before it is gone. There are many suggestions on the web on living a full life but from experience, we know after a while even that gets boring. In my opinion, we should learn to spend time with ourselves too alongside with the new things we take on. Being creative is being alive however being your self is being divine. Don’t you think we are capable of balancing both?

Na hi kascit ksanam api jatu tisthaty akarma-krt
Karyate hy avasah karma sarvah prakrti-jair gunaih

One cannot remain without engaging in any activity at any time, even for a moment, certainly, all living entities are helplessly compelled to action by the qualities endowed by the material nature.

Interesting read : http://www.dailymail.co.uk/sciencetech/article-3787410/Could-babies-conceived-without-mother-Healthy-embryos-non-egg-cells-landmark-experiment.html

Image:HareKrsna.com

Knowing My Self

Someone who read my posts asked me a question, thought it would be interesting to blog it. I was asked if I had ever experienced a marred self-image and if meditation helped me recover?

So what is self-image? It is simply how I see my self.
Actually, we all have a clear sense of self, a sense of ‘I’ but when we are asked to pinpoint and describe ‘I’ then it gets difficult. Many times we do not know how to heal our selves as we are unsure what to work on. Think of it, when asked to better our selves, we work on our career or body image or relationships thinking this is where our self lies. In reality, they belong to us but can they be us?

Many ancient Hindu philosophers and scriptures claim that we are living a life of mistaken identity, a pseudo self which is transient and impermanent.
At times, Body = I Mind = I
They state the ‘I’ present during the dream, waking and deep sleep states is called ‘Atman’ which is distinct from the mind and body. And, until the above identifications with the inner & outer body stop, we cannot be at peace. So, their advice is to know our real self and avoid any emotional scars which can damage our self-image.

I had my own encounters with emotions, felt helpless, the more I talked about it to others, those impressions seemed to get stronger. If I wasn’t seeking help outside then the thoughts that I wished to avoid kept coming back with vengeance. I felt my inside was that of a battlefield and I turned hostile.

That is when I started paying attention to my thoughts, till then I barely knew what crossed my mind.  My mind was troubled by its own thoughts just as the silkworm bound by its own thread. I started observing my thoughts, the more my mind entertained those negative thoughts the more they surfaced. When sublimated, they took another form, but still existed.

Say someone knocks at your door and you do not respond to it then what happens? Whoever it is, have to go back after trying to get your attention, isn’t it? If we do not give the thought a thought, it has to go back. But it will return and knock again many a time, simply stop giving it any more power. Eventually, it will die down. Trust me, any such experiences in life will only leave you empowered with a better understanding of the mind.

Meditation may not be possible for someone with a low esteem. We need to fix that first. Learn to forgive you. To err is human, so learn from the experience and move on. Try giving; start taking responsibility your emotional needs and that will breed confidence.

Contemplating on any object is meditation but if you wish to understand and meditate upon the SELF then you have to approach a teacher. Spiritual books can gain a lifetime of knowledge but you may still miss the deeper meaning. He/she will help you put the principles into practice. For example, ‘Live in the present moment’, isn’t as simple as it may sound and nothing will change overnight. Be patient and practice until it gets hard-wired.

Though you are already That TRUTH/God(whatever you wish to call), ignorance will stop you from being that.  So, you should consciously trash your old knowledge and instill new ones and allow them to seep in. This sure is an investment of your time and energy but you deserve to know who you really are 🙂